things i will miss...

I decided I would write a list of things I remember/miss about my little brother... for my sake I guess?

1. Singing/humming hymns or favorite songs just slightly out of tune.
2. His Laugh
3. Ability to make light of any situation
4. desire to do good
5. willingness to serve others
6. teasing my little adrie and all the grand kids for that matter
7. sleeping with his eyes slightly open
8. saying "I've done that before" to make me feel better
9. talking about girls
10. enjoying new music
11. how mature and humble he was
12. how he took care of my mom...
13. willingness to be hanging out with me cuz i was bored
14. watching american idol even though he acted like he didn't like it
15. hot wings
16. shrimp and vegetables with jerk sauce
17. motorbiking and four wheeling....camping, etc.
18. watching ESPN and sports any chance he got
19. love for Joseph Smith
20. him and his buddies hanging out at the house
21. sincerity
22. "barking spiders"......never thought i would miss that
23. all of our conversations in the last months of his life when he really started opening up...
24. willing to do anything for anybody
25. never complained or gossiped just changed the subject or didn't join in
26. his testimony
27. flaming hot cheetos and mini charleston chews
28. construction work
29. protein powder
30. working out and being concerned about his health
31. his love for music
32. listening to his mp3 player
33. taking naps on moms bed
34. procrastinating homework
35. accident prone....youngest of nine children and was most likely to be injured...
36. his feet
37. willingness to be of comfort
38. good listener
39. missionary work
40. falling asleep on the couch in awkward and uncomfortable ways
41. traveling for baseball with mom, kassie and I
42. all you can eat wings at wingers
43. subtle sense of humor

In the short time since my brothers passing I have been somewhat numb. But I have learned that in order to grow we have to have trials and adversity in our lives. I know this trial is a growing experience and only strengthens my testimony of the gospel. Our earthly life is a test of faith and this trial has helped me to have more faith in the Lord. I am so glad that I have the knowledge that I do and I am so thankful for the plan of salvation. I love you Cole and I will see you again! For now.......I miss you!!!